Posted by Mindy1718 on 2014/12/08 under Uncategorized So like, how the hell is a person supposed to feel satisfied when they don’t know what would satisfy them in life? I’ve experienced this so many f***in times that it bothers me! Ughhh! Why the hell am I not satisfied in life every f***in day! Damn it bugs me so f***in much! “Hey Mindy, why don’t you pick another hobby? I’m sure that you’ll feel better.” Damn f***in lies! How many hobbies do I have to have to feel satisfied? Life really wants me to apologize right? Is it because I’m a damn Atheist? I’m sorry world if I don’t want to believe in a God that doesn’t give me the one thing that I want most in the world! I waited patiently for 5 f***in years for God to give me what I want most but who the hell gave me that? Oh, wait, no F***IN ONE! Seems to me that I’m fed up with all these lies. Who the hell wants to believe in something that doesn’t make real sense??? Christian boarding school never helped either, they pushed me more away from that “God.” I just want to have that satisfying feeling you know. I can’t fix the pieces to my puzzle if I don’t know what they look like… some puzzle that’s never finished right? Well, I guess I feel a little better now that I wrote on this thing but the satisfying sensation of life has to be found out still. Some life of mine that wants something that might be unattainable…